“If happiness is the finish line I beat you there. I always thought that when you’d put the baggage down I’d meet you there.” Joe Budden/Jump Off Joey
A lyric that has helped me through lots of situations. Basically, I’ll be happy before you in the long run and I’ll welcome you when you finally find your happiness. So as I’m trying my absolute hardest at the moment to find any sort of happiness there are quite a few obstacles I’m finding myself struggling to ‘jump’ over. The first is work. It just feels like I work with animals sometimes and I really haven’t got the time of day for it. Its a job that when you do well you get moaned at and when you perform shit. Yeah you guessed it, get moaned at. I love the people that I’ve met along the way, but there is no denying that a job which shouldn’t be stressful and damn right tiring is just about testing my patience as of yet.
I need a lifestyle change, or I need to do something different. My feeling at the moment is to reduce my shifts and concentrate on University as it happens, after all that is my future and although my current job is paying the bills all it is sadly is a job. My career is much more important.
Happiness for me surely is to have a group of people be proud in me, be it Family and Friends. Even for the worst of enemies to acknowledge I’ve achieved something, after all you dislike someone due to jealousy majority of the time. However, I would love to make these people proud by achieving just that, a degree. Then my mind can move onto other things and start ticking off my own mental list of things to do before I die.
By the end of 2013 I have a few personal goals and in the 6 months remaining of this year I hope to achieve them. I shan’t discuss them now, but I’m well underway for my own pursuit.
A few things to note:
I’m searching for placement work and continually updating my CV aswell as working on a few home projects on design.
I will aim to post them on here when my work is complete or as it happens with the clients approval!!